Thursday, April 29, 2010

The ideal of perfection

Perfect. It's the only thing that, to most people, should ideally describe everything. Except it doesn't.

"Nobody's perfect. I am nobody."

Ever heard someone say that? Yeah, lame ain't it? No further comment. :P

"Practice makes perfect."

True that, but everybody has different ideas of perfect. From a perfect music performance to a perfect score in a test.

We all strive for perfection, and in the eyes of others, few people achieve it. But to the most competitive athletes or musicians, there is no such thing as perfection. If they had achieved perfection, they would stop learning. Their constant mental reminders of "that's not good enough" pushes them to set the bar higher, not in order to achieve perfection, but to improve themselves. To them, perfection is the very limit. Take it away, and you could be so much more. More than perfect. More than what they thought they could do. But most of all, more than what others thought they could achieve.

That oughta shut 'em up. Don't you just love it when you prove people wrong? :P

Thursday, April 22, 2010

8 Simple Rules

Those rules have been running through my head ever since God knows when. So I thought about it for a while, and now I've decided to write them out to make them clearer.

So, these are the 8 simple rules, in no particular order, that I live by:

1. Nobody's perfect.
2. Everybody's different.
3. Never be emotionally swayed; always be stoic.
4. Nothing lasts forever.
5. Nothing ever happens for a reason; life is random.
6. No matter how hard you try, there are some things in life you just can't control.
7. Don't change for anyone or anything; be yourself.
8. Never give up.

Sticking with those rules have helped me through pretty much everything life's thrown at me so far. And I'm ready for the many more that will come. :)

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Go on, lie to me

Lie to Me - 12 Stones

Our candle burns away
The ashes full of lies
I gave my soul to you
You cut me from behind

Nowhere to run and nowhere to hide

You're scared of the truth, I'm tired of the lies
'Cause who I am
Is where you wanna be

Don't act like an angel

You're falling again
You're no superhero
I found in the end

So lie to me once again

And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end?

You said you were there for me

You wouldn't let me fall
All the times I shared with you

Were you even there at all?

Nowhere to run and nowhere to hide

You're scared of the truth
I'm tired of the lies
'Cause who I am
Is where you wanna be

Don't act like an angel

You're falling again
You're no superhero
I found in the end

So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end?

Why'd you have to up and run away

A million miles away
I wanna close my eyes and make believe
That I never found you

Just when I put my guard away
 
It's the same old story
You left me broken and betrayed
It's the same old story

Don't act like an angel

You're falling again
You're no superhero
I found in the end

So lie to me once again

And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end?

Lie to me once again

It's the same old story
Lie to me once again
It's the same old story

Was it worth it in the end?



Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQQyv8Ix5Qk


Lies. Betrayal. Unreliable relationships. Letdowns.

Everything that makes you question why you even bother making friends in the first place. Sooner or later, they're just gonna turn their back on you. Then you go and make other friends, and it happens all over again. It goes in a cycle. Makes you wonder if you're better off just staying out of it in the first place.

So is it worth it in the end? I don't know.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Lone warriors

I reckon everyone's a lone warrior at some stage in their life. Y'know, when you're all alone, yet you rough it out and make it on your own, without anyone else's help. And when friends say they'll always be there for you? Well, truth is, sometimes they just aren't, and that's when you have to go it alone. More often than not, you end up motivating yourself to keep your head up and get through it. But in the end, you emerge stronger, and with a different perspective on life; you become more independent and stoic, but at the same time, more wary and less trustworthy of those around you. You're gonna need it to survive in this cold, harsh, dog-eat-dog world. You're being naïve if you think anything less, or otherwise. And that's a fact.

Lone warriors. From the missing soldier finding his way home, to the one, insignificant human being trying to rebuild their life from scratch all by themselves because everyone's abandoned/given up on them. Don't tell me they had people by their side helping and supporting them, chances are there weren't; I may not know people who've got through similar situations, but I'm willing to bet that it's happened before.

To all the lone warriors out there, I salute you all. You are the true meaning of independence and survival-of-the-fittest, in this world where few can be friends, and fewer can be trusted. Cheers. :)

Saturday, April 17, 2010

First week back

First week back at school wasn't too bad. Waking up on Monday was the hard part though; the alarm blared and my mood sank immediately. These holidays didn't feel long enough. Maybe it was 'cos I was busy doing quite a bit; from driving lessons to movies to Easter camp. Plus, there was a crapload of homework as well, which as usual, the teachers didn't bother checking once we got back. >< So much for putting in effort in year 11, when you're expected to be serious and the teachers are just slack. -.-""" Geez and I thought it was the other way around.......not that I'm slack but you get the point. :P

Well I guess what really made me reluctant about returning to school was the monotony of it all, and the environment as well. Somehow I hate the atmosphere of school. In my year level there's way too much drama going on (see previous post), it's awful. Honestly, if there were another school as good as Glenny in terms of education and with nicer/less bitchy people, hell I'd move there right now. Like I said, I don't need all the crap that goes on at school 'cos it's just distracting and plain stupid.

Wow, that last paragraph made me realise, school's actually REALLY boring. From year 11 onwards, you aren't in a fixed class anymore and you're with different people every single period. It's good for making friends (something I don't do often and I'd really rather not), not so good for maintaining friendships with those who don't share any classes with you anymore. Well I'm the kinda person who prefers a few close friends to many acquaintances, so there. The structure of classes in year 11 really isn't for someone like me. To be honest, it's pretty horrible.

Anyway, enough of rambling. As I'm typing this, my bro and a family friend are playing CS and blowing the heads off bots. Oh well. I'm probably gonna go and take a nap now since there isn't much to do. See y'all later.

Friday, April 09, 2010

Drama

I hate drama. Real-life drama, that is. Really, I do. The only thing it's good for it's gossip, and even then gossip is petty, time-wasting talk. But somehow everyone does it for conversation's sake; it's unavoidable.

Drama is something we can all do without in our lives. Yet it comes about from misunderstandings and fights, and the end results are usually crying, screaming, backstabbing, bitching, and more often than not, fistfights. It could all very well be a script for a television soap opera. Except it all happens in real-life, so it's much worse.

Most of all, we don't need all that bullshit. If only human beings could all get along, life would be so much easier and drama-free.

But who am I kidding? Not myself, that's for sure. That was just idealistic thinking, and as everyone knows, being idealistic almost never helps; being realistic does, and a whole heap, too. Let's face it, human beings are flawed creatures that have not, cannot and never will get along and find peace throughout their entire era of existence. We have conflicts, squabbles, disputes, wars and whatnot.........and yes, you guessed it, it's all real-life drama.

Call me cold and possibly nihilistic, but humans are gonna die out one day not because of some large meteorite striking the Earth and blocking out the Sun, but because one day, all our various dramas, from our disagreements to wars to global warming (which we brought about because nobody's doing anything about it) are gonna add up and ultimately become our undoing; in other words, we end up killing ourselves. Sad, ain't it? Then again, it's probably humanity's real fate.

Is there anything we can really do about it? I don't think so. As I mentioned earlier, we're seriously flawed creatures.

And we can't save ourselves.